Annoying Blog Jealousy

I’m really annoyed right now. I’ve been trying to save his post with VoxRec for a while. I don’t know why, but it keeps shutting off during this recording specifically. And I’m getting a little annoyed, but I was annoyed beforehand.

Anyway, I was scrolling through WordPress reader. It’s a function we as authors have where we can look at our sites, Look at our notifications and look through the reader to read other blogs. I’m pretty sure you guys as readers would have the same function, but I haven’t had WordPress before owning my blog.

So I was searching there to see anything interesting. I didn’t find anything that would interest me. It feels like WordPress is full of blogs made by like 30 to 40 year old white women that want to make how-to, slice of life things that just don’t interest me. Maybe I should dig more and find Anonymous bloggers like myself, but I think my plan is going to work. The plan to make gay fanfiction and put all my coins into that basket.

While I was searchingI found one blog where they were celebrating 50 posts and While I do get readers here, I only have like two followers. So they were celebrating 50 posts, and as you guys know or anybody who’s been like consistently here, I had also reached 50 posts in the end of June. and tried to make a post about it, but my website was down anyway, so you guys got it in the beginning of August.

Now the post said something like this, “I cannot believe I made it past 50 let alone getting 200 followers.” and you know, I guess I’m bitter and jealous. I don’t know. It’s weird to think about. Because I haven’t been like posting consistently. I think that’s a big problem. I know another big reason is because I don’t do those types of posts. Like what I said earlier, their blog was just oh how to do this-how to invite positive energy into your house-how to clean-basic blog shit found literally anywhere on the internet.

Waste of time. I don’t know. I don’t want to give that to people I don’t want to. Put effort into something I don’t care about. But at the same time, I’m not sure anybody cares about ME. Who am I to criticize? I don’t know. I’m just frustrated. I’m not getting nearly the same amount of followers or viewers, but then again that’s on me. I’m not posting consistently.

However, I also feel at the same time if I like make 200 posts because I what, posted every single day from now until like Christmas? I still feel like it won’t be enough and I won’t have too many people tuning in. I’ve been worried about this blog for a while but reading through reader. Maybe WordPress just wasn’t for me.

I’m definitely going to keep at it until we hit the three-year Mark where they expect me to pay 400 more dollars for no pay off, but we’ll see. We’ll see. It depends on if this does anything for me by year next November. Anyway, thanks for to the people who have been here and have consistently lessened.

Thanks for listening in general💋