This time I don’t have passive aggressive ass parents nagging me to buy a new phone. Also finally considering actually buying a new phone! See how that works? Christmas is bizarre ain’t it?
It is 3 a.m. Christmas morning as I type this. I apologize the update didn’t come blah blah never finished doing fanfiction blah blah. Visiting family is forcing me into writing.
First Night, already Drunk Confessions
Earlier my older cousin had asked if me and my sister had bedbugs, because she took us here and said she started feeling bumps on he skin. Keep in mind it’s like midnight and she’s drunk as fuck. And then that conversation led to a full out admittance of her admitting that our family isn’t alright.
The strange reassurance that everyone in the family is falling apart. A very strange u-turn from the girl who was telling me that Covid and inflation are just creating unnecessary fear, that we shouldn’t really worry about.
It’s not much that I couldn’t emotionally handle. To summarize all that I can remember from the conversation: I was told that my crazy aunt insisted that my completely normal aunt was fucking crazy. The cousin who has been most passive aggressive towards me about my absence from the family is just a crybaby with many problems who also creates new problems . My other cousin is surviving with 4 children but is of course in a tough spot wanting to buy a home and move out of that apartment.
She also drunkenly admitted that she never talked about the family that way with anyone period, it’s starting to wear her down too. I told her more about why we have been avoiding the family for that reason. Which lead to a discussion about me surviving living with dad. And the “fight we had gotten into. How depressing and exhausting everything had gotten after mom’s death, it seemed as though she had taken in too much and dipped out the conversation.
This wasn’t even the whole DAY!!!
Now I’m left, not a wreck, but emotionally shaken. It’s also a very scary time mentally. Because of them I am now fully having to consider buying the house from dad. And having to figure out how to do that, while thinking of a way to convince him.
It’s 3:30 now. And I feel ready to pass out. Full length post in 30 fucking minutes babe! Merry Christmas to all!
And Thanx for Listening💋💋💋
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