Shaky Future: Will Lose Streak Soon/Careless Father

Tomorrow, I have to start working again. I get paid Friday, but due to the lack of shifts and minimum wage, it’s gonna be a shitty check. I’m sorry bout the short posts recently. I have just been eating and drinking trash, not wanting to do anything. Binge watching Daria because it expires on Hulu in less than 2 weeks.

Something else, I didn’t mention that happened in the last week. My little step brother had his birthday earlier in the week. I was told a day before we had to go to the party that there even was a party we had to go to. And then we get to the house, and apparently it was the wrong day. And we stayed there for like 6 hours anyway with nothing to do. And then we still had to do it the next night. Fucking ridiculous, and I had to re-pretend to give a shit about others.

It’s not even that my father or my stepmother is fully stupid. We’ll call my stepmother Angie from now on. Angie had apologized and realized she miscommunications with Dad and that it was her fault. But I can guarantee that it was also Dad’s fault in the extent that he does away with the details of anything. He could’ve asked her what time he should’ve gone to pick us up. Something like that. But of course, there’s an obvious issue with planning and or communicating at all with my father. I would know. Hell, even my little sister’s pretty sick of his shit lowkey, even though she would never tell him.

My father’s continuous inability to plan anything or communicate well with anybody is absolutely staggering. It’s painful to watch. And now that he’s married, and getting fat again, he’s falling into old toxic habits again. Of course nobody would realistically notice it but me. And that’s because a lot of his toxic assaults, big or small, happened to target me. Especially in these recent years.

He’s neglectful and I’m honestly so annoyed with him and Angie at this point. They are both fairly awful with parenting, both his kids are old to be thrown out and yet he’s really learned nothing of value after all this time. That’s about it you guys, thanx for listening.