~May 25~
While I can absolutely do without my little sister trying to compare herself to me every chance she gets. I share her disappointment that the crisis at hand robbed her, and the entire class of 2020 (highscool and college).
Yesterday we went back to AppleWood North. There was a line of cars. My sister sat in the car with her Cap &Gown waiting. She stepped out of the car and stood next to the principal in a tent for a picture, then she walked over to a different tent for her diploma. And then we got back in the car and went home and dad grilled some food for the family. Because its been raining for so long. This Memorial day weekend seemed like a good time to for it as it was finally sunny out.
I don’t know when I’m going to write that fanfiction. That won’t be lost I swear. I had worked everyday since we reopened. And honestly, with me having to do everything yesterday for my sister, I’m fairly exhausted. I should’ve made a post yesterday. But I kind of woke up having to get ready for all of that.
Today has been pretty uneventful. Starting to play killer in Dead by Daylight because I’m approximately 10 levels behind where I should be with the Rift. And I’ve run out of survivor stuff to do in the current tome. So in the next two days, I’m going to create a youtube channel create and edit my first video. The sevond day will be Tuesday. So I’ll have to figure out how to work with the PTB.
I feel shitty though to be honest. I’m working now and it feels like EVERYTHING I want to do outside of it is taking a backseat because of it. And it feels like, “I’m doing this all FOR WHAT?” This job in the long run won’t give me enough money for literally anything.
Part of the reason I started a blog like this is so that I could make extra money along with having this as a journaling hobby. While maintaining a healthy full time job. I feel like what’s exhausting me the most is transportation, and the simple fact I don’t have a bed. I need to find a better job quickly. I need to get out of the food businesd. I also need to figure out when gyms finally reopen. I need to go to them because I have a sneaking suspicion that an outbreak will happen, like BIG outbreak. Which will force the US to shutdown again.
Also I’m tired of being fat. Back to the fanfiction process. I honestly haven’t written anything. But I did rewatch both the TFS parody and actual movie. With that, I made an outline. Sooooo there is something. I do know what I want to do with it. I just need time to get creative with the chapters that don’t fully involve either scripts.
Back to the topic at hand, my sister’s graduation was okay. Better than nothing at all. I still wish she’d gotten more. I feel like she’ll keep comparing herself to me until something overwhelmingly big happens. And even then, she wouldn’t find satisfaction unless she was attempting to rub it in my face. 🙁
I’m proud of her… I just want her to decide her shit so she can leave this damn household. She literally let it go to complete shit and I want the house to myself. Along with the fear of another outbreak, there is the chance of doing online courses for the fall. In which I will gladly stay home. I don’t fully know what that means for Greek life on campus, or anything else really. It probably will give me more opportunity to work with, on, by, and for myself. It really is crunchtime, and with her just now graduating. Alot of things are gonna be set in motion.