I don’t know why writing into this blog is becoming so prevalent in terms of when. Like I just magically get a burst of energy to do this during my shitty 2 hour class. It’s whatever. I’m starting to run out of trash to eat. In the near future, I’m going to have to transition to all of the chicken breasts I’ve been ignoring.
In other news, the boss I had for my coordinator role in the food pantry I work for shafted me. She said she was going to reach out to all the coordinators for a one on one meeting. She also refused to call me for if I wanted to be at the pantry for hours. Doing this knowing even if I did move, Istill live near campus. There was an application for coordinatorship next year. Being that almost the entire circle of 9 coordinators were outgoing seniors, the two event planner sophomore coordinators (me and some other bimbo) we sure to get our spots back in the circle.
So imagine my surprise when noone notifies that even with the nonsense COVID19 has brought to everyone, that we were still turning in the applications. She could’ve easily mentioned it to me if she had the one on one, which she didn’t. So I emailed her about it, she responds with a rejection so formal, I could just tell she very intentionally wanted to get rid of me. Of course, the original fury made me wish she died from the corona. It actually kinda sickens me that she would do something that underhanded.
Yes, initially I could’ve been so extremely on top of it that I would’ve made sure the application ws turned in. I was in the midst of moving out, being quarantined and figuring out literally everything else in that moment, but yes, I had that power. It just strikes me because she obviously kept in contact with other coordinators. The only real general reason I can think of for her not letting me be on the schedule is the fact that I do alot of work study hours and they are making budget cuts. But that’s something she could’ve easily been direct about. I’m so sick of the underhanded bullshit she’s thrown my way this past year.
And I even directly let her know it at the beginning of this semester. I had a literal meeting with her after spring break with me discussing how she lowkey has treated me like the problematic coordinator. They tried to reassure me that while they did have issues with me, all of them were already discussed directly to me and that they would never single someone out like that. Maroon was being truthful when she said. My boss is a total fucking snake liar though. She knew she didn’t want me around.
In other news, more of my life/more of my income is going to shit. The ice cream shop I worked at before the crisis has now decided to stay closed, we were fairly close to the reopening date the owner had set. Now I’m going a prolonged amount of time without pay. I’m heavily considering the kroger warehouse gig. I’m also really wanting this crisis to end, I enjoy time apart from others, but I do want a haircut, and to go to the gym, and to work, and to get food and toilet paper, I also just wanna go out.
In other news that maybe good to hear, I finally cleared out my old room, and I also deeply disinfected it. I’m starting to piece the whole room together. Sadly, my progress came to a halt when I lost my drive after learning my TV broke on the drive home. That drive had came from the anger of my pantry Vista giving me the aforementioned shaft.
Don’t forget that it’s also coming close. The first ever Monika Red Diary Fanfiction. Within the next 2 weeks I’m gonna have the first chapter posted. Hopefully, it will help me make my claim to fame evermore secure. It’s gonna be a Dragon Ball Z fanfic, and it’s gonna be GAY! So strap yourselves in and get ready to get wet because I’m gonna get that party started fairly soon.
One last note, I also going to attempt a youtube channel that has nothing to do with this blog. It involves a game that I love(HATE) dearly. If I can scour money from either that or this blog, we’ll see what I can do in terms of growth. I’m doing better, still have alot on my mind right now.
Something has been bothering me. I have been able to pump out more posts in terms of this month. The thing is though, the number of people that come to this site has dropped heavily. There are two big reasons I suspect, that have caused this. The blatantly obvious one that I suspect is the nearly 2 month long hiatus I’ve had impacted how much: google shows the site in search engines, and people even remembering such a small blog. This in my mind is somehow the positive outcome, due to the fact that it means I can obviously improve and come back from it.
The other posible answer, which scares me, is that me not posting in an SEO friendly format, and making clickbaity posts, as much as I did in january, is why it dropped. This is scary because I swore off that method of posting for a reason. It was because it made my posts hollow and heartless, was more energy and time-consuming by alot. And it made me lose interest in general.
I have hope that soon, google will recognize that I’m posting again, and will show me in search results. There is so much for me to do right now though. I’m figuring it out as I go. Don’t forget, when I hit 100, or maybe 50 published posts, I will go back and SEO update everything lol.
If I do have to go to clickbaity posts, you know I’m gonna do zodiac stuff. It’ll be fun to get back into that. Funny Sidenote btw, I started writing this post at the beginning of the class I was complaining about. It’s still going on.
One last bit in this update, while my class is finally wrapping itself up. Most of my 11:11 wishes aren’t coming true… I’ll just reset that clock to a year from now and see what happens. There is something else I’m forgetting to mention. That’ll have to come in a different post.
Love, Monika💋