NO TIMMY! STOP SUGGESTING THAT!
It’s a struggle honestly. Keeping a child like this fed and healthy. 15 posts won’t have him satisfied.
On a serious note, this site has meant alot to me. I know I could show it more. But I’ve had it in the back of my mind for so long. I just get trapped in my routine of doing nothing.
Obviously I can keep giving excuses and keep having hiatus’s. Everyone loses interest. It’s a lose-lose situation. Have faith in me though. I’ve learned alot about myself and what the limit is for me.
The truth is that I’ve been burned out on writing, long before I ever attempted to do it for fun. The other tidbit of honesty, is that since the summer, I haven’t had much of a good healthy lifestyle. I mean I’m living, but I don’t have the energy, the attention span, or the over abundance of passion needed to continue the way I was attempting.
What I was thinking of doing was doing what I’m doing right now. Type up what I’m feeling and thinking and just post it. Of course, if I deemed it necessary, then I would edit it. But outside of that, that’s the idea in my head that I had about doing this whole thing.
Unfortunately, I had heard of search engine optimization, wordpress kinda pushes it amongst it’s bloggers. And I fell into thinking that I needed to follow that to get more people to this site. It was at that point where I lost touch with writing for myself yet again, and turned my eyes onto the investment portion of it.
So like I said, I had attempted search engine optimization. And it was disastrous for my pacing and progress. I know this list of tasks may seem easy, but doing it for each and every post was somewhat daunting on me.
It goes as follows: write the post and title it, think of a keyphrase in your post, make it appear 5 times in the actual post, along with near the front of your title, make your title longer, create a meta description, include your keyphrase in there too. Now you go back to nitpick all the SEO grammar mistakes and fix them, then find a picture that’ll fit your story AND your keyphrase. Input your keyphrase in the pictures alternate text. And essentially you’re done. Now I’m extremely lazy, and I’ll admit it. But with my style of writing, how I chose to produce it, and even down to the fundamental stuff of what I want to write about, goes against that formula.
Oh and I forgot, word count and subheadings. I have to force myself to write more to make it optimal for search engines, and then after that make subheadings to divide up what you read because the internet has faith in your attention span as a human being.
Maybe you can somewhat pick up on it, but it took me a while to come to the needed realization. That formula, all of that is for a team/organization that pumps out dozens of crappy top ten lists or how-to pages. Nonsense that I won’t be looking forward to have on this page.
So I’ve come to a decision. Until I reach a substantial number of posts (atleast 100), then the only part of that list that I’ll be worrying about is the SEO grammar stuff. It’ll help my posts be more polished. And also depending on, I will also be making longer posts, so that I truly have something to look back on. Maybe at like 500 posts or something, I’ll need a break from writing and I’ll physically go back and change and change everything for search engine friendliness. Until then, I want to make sure I take off those shackles that have been weighing me down.
In other news. That isn’t the only thing that I’ve been contemplating. This post is more of a big update realistically. There are times when I get in a depressive mood, eat candy, and imagine scenarios with guys that I’ve had crushes on. I’m going to attempt to log some of them in here. That’s what Fantasy Diaries will be. But I wanted to make sure that it was announced that this will be moved on.
As a counter balance, I also thought up Reality Diaries. This will be real situations I’ve had with people that made me feel something in general. I want to really have something to look back on. Stories. I don’t know. I wanna leave my mark somewhere. And I finally believe in myself enough to go for it here.
My last new development, while I’m posted up Anne Frank’ing myself for the next months, I want to do real diary entries. I think this will be what I post daily. It will be a chance to log in everything I do, and have alot more control over my world atleast.
And finally, now that I’ve finished I will conclude by stating there will still be the random posts alongside everything. I don’t think I have it in me to just continue as rigidly as I may be projecting. As a matter of fact, I won’t be pushing myself incredibly hard in that goal. Regardless of whatever type of post I make, I will try to do 1 post per day.
Oh, and in other news. I’m pushing to be a fanfiction writer. More on that later when my first fanfiction comes out. It’ll be on Fanfiction.net under Monika Red or some variation of it. I’ll let you know when it comes out.