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Where I am right now

I just finished my last class. It’s Friday and I will be having to go to work in about an hour and a half. Like I said in the last post, I’m going to be probably ranting or doing multiple posts with VoxRec so that I can have something to post to you guys and so that I don’t have to force myself to type stuff up during work because that never works for me.

I usually can only do so much at work, especially because it’s still summer and there’s a lot of customers and I always get interrupted. Also I just like to walk around, I don’t like sitting down for too long. Especially knowing customers are going to come in right as I’m getting comfortable. I don’t know. I don’t know about a lot of things.

And honestly part of me is glad that I didn’t get pledge-mistress just solely based on the fact that I have so much to do now. Now I’m actually focusing on my major. It’s becoming overwhelming and honestly, I might not have been ready for pledge-mistress. I hope that they’re fucking prepared for me not to take pledge-mistress next year or even president while I’m at it.

I don’t want any of that. I don’t want any position in the chapter. Because while I may be okay with the people in the chapter right now. I’m still keeping my distance and I’m not planning on doing shit as the social chair. We’re having a pandemic that prevents us from doing social shit.

So I guess I just got really lucky because I really didn’t want social chair, but I got renominated for it five times. I don’t know. I don’t want to completely dissociate, but I’m kind of worried. I never really been put in a corner like this so quickly within the semester. Like I could always see things going downhill, but it wouldn’t be this quickly.

I think there was only one timer and that was the winter semester freshman year(pledging) and fall of last year, but that was because I took way more than I can handle in terms of workload just because I needed the money. Even after working that much I didn’t get that much money. It’s sad. I’m also kind of glad that I’m not a food pantry coordinator anymore.

I probably should leave student government next year cuz that’s not doing much for me either. I’m definitely going to look for new work and try my best to get a car before December. At the very least, owning one. I possibly could get one now, but I don’t want to get an extremely cheap car that would just be a massive problem down the road. I can’t afford having massive problems. I can barely afford books for the semester.

That’s about it though…

Thanks for listening💋

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