If I remember correctly… For my Chinese zodiac sign, Earth Rabbit, ever since March even like think I was supposed to be high in terms of all of my fortunes for May. But then, it just all goes downhill from there for the rest of the year and December is just my rock bottom point. This is all if I’m remembering my graph correctly that is.
That was disheartening and it’s really disheartening now to see it come to fruition. And I’m struggling. I cannot be struggling right now, but that’s just kind of what happens. I’m going to have to look at my Chinese zodiac sign and see what’s in store for 2021, and just pray that it’s better than this year. Nevermind Corona. I’m really starting to believe in this damn Earth rabbit sign shit.
It’s crazy and it’s been the same chart for years. I’ve looked at my Chinese zodiac sign a long time ago with the same website and it’s been that exact same thing for at least a year. And they had predicted that for me, and anyone born in the same year, everything will start to spiral out of control after May. And the coronavirus hit late March through April. And all of the quarantine stuff happened in May directly after.
Just to be right on about how everything declining after May. Somewhat of an incredible prediction. And then to just see things spiral out of control in my own life slowly and slowly. It’s crazy to think about and it makes me believe at least specifically that this is the one thing spiritually to be proven correct. I don’t think God gave me any warning about coronavirus. I don’t think there was anything about Virgos and how a pandemic would put things on hold.
Thinking back on it though, every year since 2016. It’s just been getting worse and worse and worse and worse. And I was hoping 2020 would be the turnaround but it just keeps getting worse and I’m not sure I’m gonna have to look at the prediction because 2021 will probably be a complete disaster.
But if I remember correctly, at the very least December is supposed to be the worst and I’m not even going to be in school for that. So I don’t know how but it’s supposed to be the worst and I’m pretty sure I’ll have nowhere else to go but up for the next year or. Maybe in my case may be by December. I’ll finally have made the fanfiction and gotten a scholarship or something.
I’m going to look it up actually just so I can figure out what it is, but now I’m a little sad. I’m a little happy that we’re not at December yet. And that things haven’t gone AWOL yet. I’m not considering the worst of the worst, but I don’t know. My life has been spiraling out of control in terms of everything. Family, money, energy, school, most things in my life right now. And this is me turning 21.
I’m worried that in December dad’s just really gonna force me to find a new place. I doubt he’ll do it, but If I can expect anything, the worst of the worst scenarios is that dad is going to stay true to his word and actually sell this damn house by next summer. Then I really won’t have a place to stay.
They fully didn’t get me a room in their house. So they’re fully just kicking me out and telling me to deal with it and figure it out. They bought the house as coronavirus was starting.
Accomplishing nothing within my major and within school, I’m honestly really scared of a lot of possibilities happening to me. I shouldn’t be this young feeling like all of my doors are shutting already. Hopefully I do something with this bike. But that’ll cost even more money and I can’t afford anything right now until I get that damn car.
Maybe that’s the gamble maybe something breaks down. I’m so worried. I’m overthinking it. And I probably won’t have enough because I’m saving up for the damn car. I have way too much on my mind now. I’m going to let you guys go.
Thanx for listening💋