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The Birthday Post 2020

Yesterday was my damn birthday. It happened… Almost two months went by and I haven’t talked to you guys. In my defense, I wanted to post. But the entirety of July, my website has been down and I couldn’t do anything about that. Usually when my website’s down, I’m at the mercy of others. But admittedly, this month, I haven’t had too much of an excuse. At the beginning of August, I kind of found it Uber Eats and then subjected myself to McDonald’s like the entire month.

It was because my friend slowly stopped driving me home because she started work and wanted her sleep. So I had to go back to sleeping and starving in the basement. What’s going on in this moment? I started school two days ago. My birthday was yesterday. I’m not going to tell you exactly what day today is, or when I’ll ever post this, but I did want to speak and get this somewhat document this day.

At least I knew yesterday was going to be a weird day for me, but it was a lot and I’ll say this a lot more people said happy birthday than I expected. Some people I didn’t expect to talk to me ever again had even wanted to hang out with me in the future and that’s crazy to me. I don’t know. I feel like I have a family, kind of. But you know my sister after all this shit I had to do yesterday she still had the nerve to give me an attitude and pissed me off on my own birthday, especially with everything she has and the simple fact that she’ll have more than I ever can. And the fact that most things are just handed to her and she decided to be entitled and selfish.

I came home and she was sitting in the living room. (I’ll get to why I’m not in my room right now and why I moved to the living room eventually and I’ll start doing posts to make up for the two months that I haven’t posted) The simple fact was she was there but all my stuff is here and I’m pretty much in here for now. I will be moving on campus in a week and a half and I have to do my classes in here to to focus and I also need to clean up the room to some degree.

But her reasoning for hogging space was because it was her fire stick TV. It’s not, it’s Dad’s, he just named it hers because she lives here the entire year and there’s nobody else living here. But realistically if I was living with her, it would be the living rooms saying and then subsequently mine. So she doesn’t really have grounds to sit here and hog the living room.

And also I don’t think she realizes this, but this is the last time I’m even going to be living with her. It might be the last time she’ll see me in extended contact. She’ll sit there and act like she misses me, but I will not stand for her acting like she misses me after this. This was just a bit too much and While at the time, I kind of forgave her and took her apolog,. I realized that she has autism and she doesn’t really mean anything. She just doesn’t want me mad at her.

And honestly, I’ve gotten really sick of her shit and I’ve gotten really sick of her fucking fake bullshit. She’ll sit there and give me attitude and then the next second try to say well something else but no. I don’t know. But that wasn’t all that was yesterday. That was nearly the end of everything that happened yesterday.

I had started the day off at like 7 a.m. and walked to the bus stop and then went to Target and Chase to put my money in the bank and to go to Target to get some clothes because I need new shirts before I go back to school. Shirts that at least kind of fit me. I gained a lot of weight. Even more than where I was when I last talked to you, which is astounding I think I might have reached a limit. But that’s beyond the point.

I went to Target and then I walked all the way from Target to Walmart. Not a mile long walk. But it’s still a decent walk. Chase, Target, and the Walmart are on the same Mall but I have to walk all the way across it just to get to Walmart. It’s a fairly big mall. And then I got more cheap clothes from there, more socks more, underwear because I hate more than anything feeling like I only have one week supply of clothes because usually that’s never enough not even for an actual week. It’s a bit much of a struggle and I have the money. It’s just me and my goal of getting a car is slipping out of my hands quickly.

I also took this entire week off to figure out my schedule and how I can fit work into it. So it’s like I’m not gaining anything monetarily at this moment either. I’m just kind of blowing away money.

Luckily later on, I’ll get to campus and get food from there, so I won’t be blowing all my money on that and if I’m being honest, that’s at least 70% of what I’ve blown my money on. In the summer at least, and maybe even the entire year, but that’s not all.

At this current moment, We’re getting close to 11:11. I’m in the middle of an online class. I’ve muted my teacher. Had him as a teacher freshman year, but now he’s teaching me calculus and I’m completely ignoring it because we’re in the beginning chapters. Just going over what we learned in precalculus and I almost taken precalculus-esque classes three times over, so this is a bit overkill. But after he’s done with this, which will be 50 minutes from now. I don’t expect to still be talking to you guys back to the story.

After I had gone to Walmart, I bus all the way home and my phone was dead the entire time I was out. I was worried a bunch of birthday messages that I didn’t get to. By that point however, the only text I got was from Dad. My step-mother later had texted and asked me what plans I had for the day and I had to explain to her that I was going to get my haircut and I was going to go to the DMV and might possibly go out with friends. She then, on the spot just ordered me a $100 Uber gift card. I love her. It was funny. It helps. Especially considering I’ve been using my money for food.

Even if I don’t have enough money or at least don’t have enough food for right now, I can at the very least, use what ever is left for Uber Eats. So yeah, I went to get my hair cut. I forgot to bring cash because I put all my cash in the bank. So I had to after he gave me the haircut. I had to go chase which was right next to them and then come back with $40 because I always tip $20 for $20 haircut. It’s dad’s reckless money giving I’ve inherited. I hate it, but it does give you certain perks, because they remember you, and give you special treatment.

I ubered all the way to the DMV and I stood outside for two hours or I think may it might have been closer to an hour and a half but it was it was dangerously close to two hours. The sad thing is I had anticipated having to wait that long. And I was worried that coming in at 2 pm, I wouldn’t even be able to get in because they closed at 5 pm. I knew that the lines would take forever and I thought worst case scenario after waiting there for three hours. They wouldn’t have gotten to me. I was there to get my state ID renewed because it expired same day. But what was irritating was that they kept the lines waiting OUTSIDE. It was unbearable. Just toget my State Id renewed.

Before this, I was considering drinking with a friend, but when I was sitting there in line, I realized that I couldn’t drink with friends because drinking with friends would involve me having to spend the night. This is because nobody would be sober enough to take me home and that’s a huge thing.

To top it off, I was very antisocial after being in a line in that hot ass summer heat, standing in place, going literally nowhere for 2 hours. I mean, if I could drive I wouldn’t care if I was tipsy. I would just stupidly take the risk and drunk drive home because I’m not trying to stay there at all. So I had to cancel those plans. And then I chose to go to the Kroger that was somewhat nearby the BMV. Because I wanted food and I didn’t want to have to Uber eat. I was sick of doing that and while I was out I decided that it would be a good time to at least get food.

It was rough trying to get the Uber because Kroger’s internet didn’t allow the phone that I had Uber on to like login, so I had to get pull the SIM card from the Android that I have and put it into my iPhone just to get the app to work. But I wasn’t walking home with all those groceries and then I made it home and as mentioned, my sister started acting pissy because I asked her why she was always in the living room.

At this point, she has a room. She has multiple actually. In my stepmother’s and Father’s house her room has more space than our living room and her room combined. That’s a scary thought and she doesn’t want to go up there because she knows she’ll have to work, She’s just been avoiding having to work this entire summer. She can’t avoid it the rest of the year though. Dad will snatch her up regardless and that’s just something she’ll have to deal with and then they’ll just keep pressuring her until she does get to work again.

But it’s just really irritating that she’s come back from month-long vacation, during the month of July just, to come back here and complain that I’m in the living room for what, the next two weeks? I’m not going to be here for that long.

I’m a low-key tired of even talking about it. I enjoyed the rest of the day and I’m now on Naruto Shippuden. I’m getting close to the new team Kakashi re-seeing Sasuke after all the years. That’ll be fun.

I bought pizza rolls and wheat bread from I forgot the name of the brand. Oh right. I bought wheat Wonder Bread! And hopefully I’ll be able to just make sandwiches. If not, I think my ubereats days might be done and I’ll just instacart things for now because and this is something dad isn’t fully aware of yet, but I have a meal plan on campus and I’m going to use it.

So he’s just gonna have to suffer in terms of pay. I’m wondering what this will do. This will definitely hurt somebody and probably come back to bite me in the ass, but I’m not in a position where I can keep paying for things because Dad isn’t helping me with anything and I need help.

So this is going to be his way of helping me and I’m going to look for work and figure out getting a car soon. While I haven’t blown away my money. I’ve still been saving a lot of it and I can say that confidently, very confidently, I’m halfway there and with me moving on campus with a meal plan, I’ll get there a lot faster.

I do need to find a new job before December, but for the most part, this is my birthday update. I’m just letting you guys know. And I wanted to get this out of the way before. Before I really let that momentous occasion pass me by.

Thanks for listening.

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